Yeah, sure. Whatever.
Big bodybuilding competition this weekend. I didn’t know anyone who competed in my division, but I was cheering on a couple Facebook friends who were competing in a different division.
I waited for the pictures to be posted online and then I looked at the women who earned their pro card in my division. I’m such a novice, not near their level at all, but I look to get an idea about how far behind I am. I started by looking at the pictures of the overall winner. Oh gosh. I’m not close at all. Then the self talk starts…
“What the hell am I thinking? I’m almost 51! How can I possibly do this?”
“Maybe I can, but I should wait another year to compete again.”
“No, I should compete in June. Need the experience. Need to be realistic. Women compete many times before they place, much less win.”
“Oh SHUT UP and train. Can’t control what anyone else does anyway, can you?”
What really makes a rest day suck? The mental gymnastics. Most call it the ‘mental game’, but as you can see, I do a lot of flipping.
And then I looked at the pictures of the others. The women who placed in the top five of their class, but didn’t win the overall. OK – they aren’t so far ahead of me. I’m not going to be that developed by June, but I will be there in a year or two. I’ve been told repeatedly to NOT compare myself to others. But I have to look. I have to know that I’m not wasting my time, because I don’t have decades ahead of me in this sport. I have to see something that makes me think – “yeah, I can do that”.
Point being – I’ve had this same conversation with myself for three years. I’ve accomplished a lot despite my best attempts to talk myself out of it. LOL!! So I dare you – SHUT UP and do it anyway. Don’t worry. That little voice isn’t going anywhere. You’ll probably have to ignore it again tomorrow.